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★ Me Just Me

Tan Yee Ling

Orange ♥


★ About Me

1985 Aquaris Lady

I try to appreciate all the simple little things in life haa :D

I prefer night to day, I really luv peace. I'm a crazy gal.

I cry when I'm veri sad but next minutes, I'll be fine.

Happy go lucky gal and is so in love with coffee.

★ Chitty-Chat



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Things after Things...
Saturday, October 18, 2008 @ 4:41:00 PM
There are 4 Things which cannot be Recover...


The Word : After it's Said

The Occasion : After the Loss !

The Time: After it's Gone !


The Stone: After the Throw !
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Friday


7.15am wake up and went to Hougang hospital with dad. No, he is not mad... he need to see the doctor there because we cant really effort the expensive medication from Private doctor.





It took us half a day to settle everything and 21 days of mc was given to him and he need to see a special doctor on 24 nov and a pschology on 27 nov. Hai... he simply had too much to worry that causes him to be in this situation. Back home 1pm and finally i can eat because i din eat my breakfast.





Heard from mum one of our relative was in JB hospital in ICU. Straight after my Quick lunch, my sis stay home to take care dad and i accompany my mum and aunt to JB Hospital.


I was kind of angry with the nurses over there, they are unfriendly and they do not allow me to enter the wards because i was wearing a skirt. My skirt should be Long not touches the knee cap. I waited my mum and aunty alone out side the hospital. I saw that nurse allow people who are malay to go in and they do not take the pass..? then why i cannot go in? I saw she onli stop chinese.. well i try not to think she is racist!





I was sitting at the emergency area and when i saw some one in pain came to hospital, some how i dun find the sense of emergency from the nurses. WHY? Suddenly, i miss singapore way of services and management. Recalling last year my dad was in ICU because of his Heart porblem. The nurses was so kind to us even though we are in a big group of 7, she explain nicely and then allow 2 by 2 to visit my dad . That should be the way but when my mum came out from the hospital, she told me she did not manage to see the patient because the nurse in JB hospital stop her. Mum keep begging her but she din approve instead she BANG THE TABLE.! where is the SERVICE? Mum and I later wait till when there are many people entering the gate, we quickily sneak in. GO VISIT PATIENT AS IF I AM STEALLING SOMETHING, WAT A BIG JOKE?





We left straight after the visit. She was in ICU, and was coma...home about 6pm and i had a quick dinner and went to temple with my family. Dad dun seem right again. He said he had a bad dream and he suddenly feel very scare... Went to the temple and i walk home with him because he felt like walking home. I accompany him and I started to comfort him and try to councel him...





IT was REALLY a tiring day to me and i sleep all the way till this morning....





Guess wat.... 10am - My Relative passed away... -


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Is like so scary.. yesterday just saw her, today she is gone..









UNDER DEPRESSION!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008 @ 1:50:00 AM
HELP ME! HELP ME... T_T

EVERYTHING EVERYTHING IS IN A MESS!

DAD IS OFFICIALLY UNDER great DEPRESSION!
He repeat questions over and over and over again...
We answer again again and again..

Everyone is so worry for him... he knowS?
I am tired but i know i got to hang on there...
I should be there for him...
I got to be strong but why am i crying when no one is around?
why am i so down when no one is around..

Yes i stil can take it... but i am just worry things can never be the same anymore.
Dad change.
I want my dad back...
I want to see the fatherly smile he used to give me..
I am scare to see the way he behave.. No.. he is not my dad...now..

I MUST HELP HIM!
who help me then?.....

My condition: 5/10

The smile will never be back again.... No more..
Wednesday, October 1, 2008 @ 11:21:00 PM


30th September 2008..


1.45pm... Someting BIG happen... how i wish it is just a DREAM...

Dad went to work as usual. He works as odd job contruction worker who pull those metals rod thinggies which i am not too sure either. 1.45pm , which is after lunch not long... He and his partner started to work. His partner incharge of puting the hook to the metal rods and dad will follow his instruction to pull the rods up...






Dunno WHAT HAPPEN.... when dad Pull the 4 rods up.. 1 give way and IT SWING ALL THE WAY TO HIT HIS PARTNER...


His partner laid on the ground with blood... daddy called home.... Mummy cried... she called me and i Rush home ..... Steven followed me home as we were all celebrating HUIFEN birthday at Orchard Suki Sushi with sonic and Yong... I cried and seriously i duno wat to do at all..

Home. Mum was so worried and we waited patiently at home for dad to call home. Second sis rush home too and all of us waited again.... About 5 plus.. we decided to go sembawang to just try our luck to see if we could find dad... We went here... and there... and every where.... and... thanks to steven for good suggestion... SEMBAWANG PARK. bus 882.

We went there and finally found daddy with his supervisor and boss. They were consolling my dad...He seem so lost... he seem so scare.... This is the first time i see dad like that...=( We all went home after that... There were no sound at home beside the television... No more laughter at home... no more....
Why do such thing happen? we kept telling dad is accident...he is not at fault.. but we all know... he is still very sorry of everything.. After all is not a cat, a rat, a fish but..... A LIFE.... I feel sorry for the family too... The wife and the 3 daughters... WE ARE REALLY SORRY.. =(


Worst... it was actaully the last day for both to partner because he is actually moving on to other employer... and his last day of work becomes his last day ...-_-

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1st October 2008

Went to the incident place with my sis and auntie to do simple chanting...

When i was there... my heart sank so deep that i nearly cant breath..
Sorry cannot brings back his life... sorry cannot mend anything...

I just really hope

TIME CAN HEAL...

Life is so fargile isn'it..
Today I may be here to tell u how i feel..
Tomorrow i may be gone...
Forever...

DAD needs more time to heal same goes to the family...
All i can do now is to be home as earli as possible...to accompany him..
Light up the "Tealight Candle" for Uncle Beng...
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Huifen:
There is nothing got to do with your birthday. Dont ever think of that.
Sorry for the unhappiness cause... I will be okay.. I have to cause my dad needs us..
Just that when i need a shoulder to cry on...Just be there for me ... I guess i will need it..
Anytime...


Sumin:
I am so sorry to keep u worry and makes u waited for me 2 hours at woodlands..
Yes.. Time heal.. but i guess is not about 1 weeks 1 months.. or even years...
Thanks for understanding and din scold me for not replying any sms u all send to me..
I need space too... thats why..

Steven:
Thanks for offering to go round and round with me and mei to find my dad without knowing the destination. If not u ... we may not be able to find daddy...

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All friends ...
I should be ok..
I hope... ...
I will try to be strong..
Orange Is Sad